MJ's Death & Me... Similarity? Date.

MJ died on my birthday, what the heck. Who would've known?

ANYWAYS, MJ was a good guy. That's all I'm saying. Nothing else.

Ja na.
Yuuichi-kun
aka Damien

P.S: Actually, I wanted to write a really long post but I forgot what I wanted to write =(

Contack Infoes... Bad English LOL

Well. Since JANE STILL HAS NO IDEA ABOUT MY MSN AND IGN. LOL. Let's go through this... again...

MSN : damienLCD_forever@hm.com
E-mail : yuuichikun-DESU@live.com.my

IGNS

Aquila : Divinism(Windbreaker)
Bootes : iYukikaze(Flame Wizard)
Cassiopeia : iKobayashi(Hopefully)
Delphinus : iDivinism(Confirm will get.)
Eridanus : I hate this server.
Fornax : iTakeuchi(If get, pwn.)

Songs That Mean Something

ALONES - Aqua Timez

Oreta awai tsubasa
Kimi wa sukoshi
Aosugiru sora ni tsukareta dake sa
Mou dareka no tame janakute
Jibun no tame ni waratte ii yo

Izen to shite shinobiyoru kodoku
Uchigawa ni tomoru rousoku
Nigiwau ba ni gouka na shanderia to wa urahara ni
Tarinai kotoba no
Kubomi o nani de umetara ii n’ darou
Mou wakaranai yo
Semete yume no naka de
Jiyuu ni oyogetara anna sora mo iranai no ni
Kinou made no koto wo
Nuritsubusa nakute mo asu ni mukaeru no ni

Oreta awai tsubasa
Kimi wa sukoshi
Aosugiru sora ni tsukareta dake sa
Mou dareka no tame ja nakute
Jibun no tame ni waratte ii yo

Rettoukan to no wakai wa
Kantan ni wa kanawanaisa
Jiishiki no teppen ni suwaru
Kagami ga utsusu hanabira
Furishiboru you ni
Kogoreta ai wo sakende miru keredo
Modokashikute
Meguru toki no naka de
Kizuguchi wa yagate
Kasabuta ni kowatte iku
Kimi wa sore o matazu
Totemo utsukushiku
Totemo hakanage de

Hagare ochita ato no
Ubuge no you ni
Hiwamari no naka de furueru inori
Ima wa muri ni dareka no koto wo
Ai sou to omowanakute ii no ni

[Instrumental]

Toki ni kono sekai wa
Ue wo muite
Aruku ni wa sukoshi mabushii sugiru ne
Shizumu you ni
Me wo fuseru to
Kawaita chimen ga namida wo susuru
Why do you feel so
Alone anytime
Subete wo uketomenakute ii yo
Why do you feel so
Alone anytime
Koraeru koto dakedo
Yuuki ja nai

Sen no Yoru wo Koete - Aqua Timez

Aisaretai demo aisou to shinai
Sono kurikaeshi no naka wo samayotte
Boku ga mitsuketa kotae wa hitotsu kowakutatte kizutsuitatte
Suki na hito ni wa suki tte tsutaerunda

Anata ga boku wo aishiteru ka aishitenai ka
Nante koto wa mou docchi demo ii n da
Donna ni negai nozomou ga
Kono sekai ni wa kaerareru mono ga takusan aru darou
Sou soshite boku ga anata wo aishiteru to iu jijitsu dake wa
Dare ni mo kaerareru shinjitsu dakara

Sen no yoru wo koete anata ni tsutaetai
Tsutaenaka naranai koto ga aru
Aisaretai demo aisou to shinai
Sono kurikaeshi no naka wo samayotte
Boku ga mitsuketa kotae wa hitotsu kowakutatte kizutsuitatte
Suki na hito ni wa suki tte tsutaeru n da
Kimochi wo kotoba ni suru no wa kowai yo demo
Suki na hito ni wa suki tte tsutaeru n da

Kono hiroi sekai de meguri au yorokobi wo kotoba jya ii arawasenai ne
Dakara bokutachi wa hohoemi
Iro azayaka ni sugiru aki wo doremi de utatte
Fuyu wo se ni haru no komorebi wo machi
Atarashiku umare kawaru dareka wo mamoreru youni to

Kita michi to yukisaki furikaereba itsudemo okubyou na me wo shite ita boku
Mukiaitai demo sunao ni narenai
Massugu ni aite wo aisenai hibi wo
Kurikaeshite wa hitori bocchi wo iyagatte
Ano hi no boku wa mukizu no mama de hito wo aisou to shite ita

Sen no yoru wo koete ima anata ni ai ni yukou
Tsutaenaka naranai koto ga aru
Aisaretai demo aisou to shinai
Sono kurikaeshi no naka wo samayotte
Boku ga mitsuketa kotae wa hitotsu kowakutatte kizutsuitatte
Suki na hito ni wa suki tte tsutaeru n da
Sono omoi ga kanawanakutatte suki na hito ni suki tte tsutaeru
Sore wa kono sekai de ichiban suteki na koto sa

Ketsui no Asa ni - Aqua Timez

Douse nara mou
Hetakuso na yume wo egaite ikou yo
Douse nara mou
Hetakuso de akaruku yukai na ai no aru yume wo
“Kidon nakute ii
Kakkotsuke nai hou ga omaerashii yo”

Isshoukenmei ni nareba naru hodo
Karamawari shite shimau bokura no tabiji wa
Shougakusei no
Te to ashi ga issho ni dechau koushin mitai
Sore mo mata iin ja nai?
Ikite yuku koto nante sa
Kitto hito ni warawareru kurai ga
Choudo iin da yo

Kokoro no oku no oku
Tojikometeta hontou no boku
Namami no san-juu-roku do gobun
Kazarazu ni iza we don’t stop
Kedo mada tsuyogatterun da yo
Mada baria wo hatterun da yo
Itami to tatakatterun da yo

Tsurai toki tsurai to ietara ii no ni naa
Boku-tachi wa tsuyogatte warau yowamushi da
Sabishii no ni heiki na furi wo shite iru no wa
Kuzure ochite shimai sou na
Jibun wo mamoru tame na no sa

Boku dake ja nai hazu sa
Ikiba no nai kono kimochi wo
Ibasho no nai kono kodoku wo
Kakaete iru no wa...

Hito no itami ni wa mukanshin
Sono kuse jibun no koto to naru to fuan ni natte
Hito wo kiratte
Fukou na no wa jibun dakette omottari
Ataerare nai koto wo tada nageite
San sai ji no you ni wameite
Ai toiu na no oyatsu wo suwatte matteru boku wa
ASUFARUTO no terikaeshi ni mo makezu ni
Jibun no ashi de aruiteku hitotachi wo mite omotta
Ugokaseru ashi ga aru nara
Mukaitai basho ga aru nara
Kono ashi de aruite yukou

Mou nido tohontono egao wo torimodosu koto
Dekinai kamoshirenai to omou yoru mo atta kedo

Taisetsu na hito-tachi no atatakasa ni sasaerare
Mou ichido shinjite miyou ka na to omoi mashita

Tsurai toki tsurai to ietara ii no ni naa
Boku-tachi wa tsuyogatte warau yowamushi da
Sabishii no ni heiki na furi wo shite iru no wa
Kuzure ochite shimai sou na
Jibun wo mamoru tame dakedo

Ayamachi mo kizuato mo tohou ni kure
Besokaita hi mo
Boku ga boku toshite ikitekita akashi ni shite
Douse nara korekara wa isso dare yori mo
Omoikiri hetakuso na yume wo egaite yukou
Ii wake wo katadukete doudou to mune wo hari
Jibun toiu ningen wo utai tsuduke you

I never thought I can find a few songs that closely described me. Its kind of like my life into a song. Each represents a part in my life, how I feel and how it is everyday.

For those who aren't Japanese literate(like me).

ALONES(ENG) - Aqua Timez

Pale broken wings,
you're just a little tired
from the sky which is too blue
Don't do it for anyone else
Just smile for yourself

loneliness is still creeping up,
A candle lit up inside
totally incompatible with a splendid, bustling party

The hollowness of
the absence of your words, is it ok just to bury them?
I still don't know

At least within dreams
If I can swim freely even if there isn't anywhere like that,
Even if everything until now is forgotten,
Even if I can face tomorrow...

Pale broken wings,
you're just a little tired
from the sky which is too blue
Don't do it for anyone else
Just smile for yourself

The peacefulness of inferiority
won't come true so simply
Settling above your self consciousness
A petal reflected by a mirror

Straining my lungs,
tryin' to call dirtied love,
however, it's so frustrating

As times are passing
My wounds are cursed
My scabs are changed
You haven't got that
So beautiful
Yet so short lived

After the scabs fall off
Just like the newer, shorter hair near the scar
My prayer are shaking in the bright light
I won't forcibly
try to love you...

Sometimes, in this world
When we try to walk ahead,
it's a little too bright, isn't it?
It's like we're sinking
When we feel like giving up,
the dry land sucks up our tears

Why do we feel so alone anytime?
Why do we feel so alone anytime?
We don't have to take it all, you know
Why do we feel so alone anytime?
Simple refrain isn't courage……..

Sen no Yoru wo Koete(ENG) - Aqua Timez

I want to be loved, but you don’t seem to love me
I wander within that repetition
I found one answer; that even if I’m scared, even if I’m hurt
I can say “I love you” to the person who I love

Do you love me? Or not love me?
As for things like that, it’s already fine either way
No matter how I wish
There are many unchangeable things in this world, right?
That’s right, and because only the fact of my loving you
Is the truth unchangeable by anyone

I want to overcome the thousands of nights and tell it to you
There’s something that I must tell you
I want to be loved, but you don’t seem to love me
I wander within that repetition
I found one answer; that even if I’m scared
Even if I’m hurt, I can say “I love you” to the person who I love
It’s scary to turn my feelings into words
But I can say “I love you” to the person who I love

In this broad world, I can’t express the joy of encountering you with words
So we smile, sing about the vividly passing autumn in do-re-mi
Turn our backs on winter, wait for the sunlight streaming through trees in spring
And become reborn anew, so that we can protect someone

On the path we came from and our destination, when we looked back, I’d always have timid eyes
I want to face you, but I can’t be honest
I, who repeated days of not being able to straightforwardly love my partner
And hated being alone on that day
Seemed to love people while unwounded

I’ll overcome the thousands of nights and go meet you now
There is something that I must tell you
I want to be loved, but you don’t seem to love me
I wander within that repetition
I found one answer; that even if I’m scared
Even if I’m hurt, I can say “I love you” to the person who I love
Even if those thoughts aren’t fulfilled, I can say “I love you” to the person who I love

Ketsui no Asa ni(ENG) - Aqua Timez

If you want to do something,
then sketch out your pitiful dream
If you want to do something,
then sketch out your dream
with badly lit, but pleasant love
“You don’t have to pretend, not being very cool suits you well”

The more effort we put into it,
the more fruitless our journey is
Our hands and fleet fly everywhere
like we’re in an elementary school parade
Living life, isn’t it great?
So being laughed at by people definitely feels alright

The real me is shut away in the depths of my heart
36/5 human,
to put it plainly now, we don’t stop
But I’m still acting tough,
I’m still putting up a barrier
I’m fighting with the pain

Times are tough, I wish I could say that;
that’s how I feel
We’re a couple of laughing cowards, acting tough
Even though I’m lonely,
I’m pretending to be just fine
In order to protect myself,
who feels like he’s about to crumble

It shouldn’t be only me that feels these feelings
of having no place to turn to
I’m carrying with me
This rootless loneliness…

I’m indifferent to the pain of others
When I’m really being myself, I get insecure
I hate people, and I think only of being unhappy
I whine about the things that I’m deprived of
I scream and cry like a 3 year old kid
I’m sitting and waiting for my afternoon snack,
called love

Not giving in to the reflection in the asphalt
Walking with my own feet,
I looked at people, and thought
If I could move,
if there was a place I wanted to head to
Then I would walk there with my own feet

There were nights when
I wasn’t sure if I’d be able to
Get my real smile back again
Supported by the warmth of the people that I love
I thought that maybe I should try to believe,
one more time

Times are tough, I wish I could say that;
that’s how I feel
We’re a couple of laughing cowards, acting tough
Even though I’m lonely,
I’m pretending to be just fine
In order to protect myself,
who feels like he’s about to crumble, but

My mistakes and scars, being perplexed
and the days when I was about to cry
They’re all proof that I lived my life, as myself
If you want to do something, then from now on
Sketch out your pitiful dream,
with more strength than anyone else
Readying your explanation, and holding your head high
without hesitation
Keep on singing about a person called yourself

Yes, I AM an Aqua Timez Addict so, live with it.

Ja na.
Yuuichi-kun
aka Damien

I Think I Want To Give Up

Honestly, she's, for the lack of a better word, trouble. I can't think about anything else... When I try to study, my thoughts eventually go to her and how angelic she is. This is beginning to become a bit of a nuisance because, I can't study or concentrate at all. This happens when she's NOT around. When she is, I get all fidgety, I can't even THINK straight. I tend to go quiet and try not to make her angry at me for some reason.

In fact, she's becoming more and more distant from me. It's as if she's a completely different person now. Whatever happened to the old her, I ask myself. I bet if I talked to a complete stranger for even 5 minutes, I'd know the stranger more than the person I've known all my LIFE, dammit.

I have no idea what to do. When I need her the most, she ignores me and when I don't want to see her(which is quite often lately since I AM confused about my feelings for her, she's around almost half the time. I'm beginning to derail from what I want to become, all because of a girl.

People think I have no problems since I'm always cheery and all but... hell. They have no clue. I feel like I'm trying to escape reality by being so cheerful. FFS, it makes me sick just thinking about it.

I wonder what I should do? In fact, what SHOULD I do now? I've been like this for almost 4 years straight, stuck on the same girl. Just those three syllables gives me goosebumps. I think I'm going crazy, no one my age should be made to think THIS BLOODY MUCH.

I don't think I have anything else to say =(

Ja na.
Yuuichi-kun
aka Damien

Holidays Go On And I'm Bored =.=

BORED. I HATE HOLIDAYS!!! Not really but yeah, it's kinda boring during the holidays. Unless someone comes over and does something fun.

You know whats funny? My mum threatening to kick me out of the house if I kept playing the piano. That's funny. Luckily, she hasn't and will not... HOPEFULLY.

I'm bored. I noticed my nails are bloody long. I'll cut them soon. After I rape someone... KIDDING KIDDING. Note to self. Don't joke about it.

Pokemon!

Current team~

1. Jolteon
2. Vaporeon
3. Espeon
4. Umbreon
5. Flareon
6. Glaceon

And this causes immense doom. if they don't die before anything else. LOL!

And so, the holidays go on and I am STILL bored.

Nothing much else.

Ja na.
Yuuichi-kun
aka Damien

P.S: I'm relearning 2 songs since they were incomplete and completely off-sounding. They are, River Flows In You and Every time We Touch.

Holidays Conitnue and The Learning Curve Steeps

So... I can't really play much piano songs due to the lack of keys on my organ =P Thats about 56 keys =( It makes me unable to learn Josh Agarrado's Anime Piano Nantoka 2008... And that makes me sad. Anyways, I recorded two songs on my organ todaii. An update to Sen no Yoru wo Koete and another song which shall remain a mystery until you see it?

Here they are.


This song is dedicated to Jane, the CASCADA addict.


This is my continuation from last time's song. LOL

Nothing much else.

Ja na.
Yuuichi-kun
aka Damien

Holidays Begin

Greetings and salutations.

I am Yuuichi and I thought I would re-introduce myself... Since, after all, I have begun life as a new person. I really appreciate everything around me. Seriously though, have YOU ever THANKED the dude in your tuition that gives your attendance cards the chops? I did.

Learning stuff the hard way is how I roll. I've been studying hard the last few days and I'm pretty sure I can answer some random fact questions.

So last Friday, I fought this other guy in my tuition in Pokemon and... unbelieavably, I lost. I swore to beat him, the only guy I ever lost to so far. And now, I'm sure I'll win tomorrow.

My line up is:

1. Kyogre
2. Darkrai
3. Jirachi
4. Scyther
5. Salamence
6. Deoxys

I traded with people from all over the world to get my starting line-up. This will be an epic showdown. Considering, all my Pokemon have been IV/EV trained to perfection.

I guess I got nothing else to say except that I'm currently learning 3 songs on the piano, Sen no Yoru wo Koete, Everytime We Touch and Canon in D. Also, I'm converting 2 songs into piano, Canon Rock and Drifting. Both of which, I just barely scratched the surface.

I guess that's it. Holidays are DULL.

Ja na.
Yuuichi-kun